… and life keeps happening, not asking whether i…

… and life keeps happening, not asking whether i want it or not.

i went home sick yesterday, and slept away the afternoon. I wasn’t surprised when I woke up at 3 a.m. for no apparent reason. But seeing as how I went right back to sleep, I thought nothing of it. That seems to be happening lately, so I just try to take it in stride [or in snore, if you will ;)] and rest until I sleep again.

Last night it was no problem. {must have had enough practice. ;)}

Today, I was still sick — or at least I sounded sick. Kathy talked me into staying home. I didn’t take much persuading, but I did require a little — I felt like I needed to be there. She apparently knew more about me than I did today — not more than 45 minutes after I talked to Kathy, I went back to bed, and slept more.

It was very comforting to curl up with a heating pad and an orange cat and sleep in the sunshine.

And dad called me today: Grandmother Hazel passed away at about 3:00 this morning.

I’m dealing rather well, or I’m not to grieving yet, or I already have; I can’t be sure. I know that I will cry some more, and that is to be expected. I somehow am at peace: I know she feels better now, and I got to tell her “I love you” the first week she was in the hospital. I have done what I needed to do.

and I am at peace today. It’s not what I expected to feel when I heard that news today. I don’t know what to think about it — I just know it feels okay.

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